A letter from a reader

At 67, I own eleven cardigans and I was wearing the same tired one every day

I have never written anything like this before, and I want to say at the start that I am not a writer and I am not in the habit of telling other women what to wear.

But three different women asked me about a cardigan at the charity shop on Tuesday morning, and I have now explained it enough times that it seemed easier to write it down properly.

It started with my sister June, who came over last month to borrow a roasting tin and ended up in front of my open wardrobe, counting.

You do know you own eleven cardigans, and I have only ever seen you in the grey one.

She was right, and it was worse than she knew. Ten of them sat there with their sleeves folded like they were waiting for an occasion that never came. The eleventh, the one I actually wore, had gone at both elbows and bobbled along the arms, and I kept wearing it anyway, because it was the only one that felt like mine.

How it happens

Nobody sets out to own eleven cardigans and wear one. It happens quietly.

Some arrive as presents. Some you buy because they are sensible, and sensible is easy to say yes to. And the shops do not help, because for women our age they stock two kinds. The plain ones, in shades with names like oatmeal and mushroom, that go with everything precisely because there is nothing to them. And the loud ones, that look marvellous on the hanger and then sit in the wardrobe because you never quite feel brave on a Tuesday.

So you keep the plain ones for best, which makes no sense when you say it out loud, and you wear the old favourite until it falls apart on you. Mine was doing exactly that.

What I had wrong

I assumed the replacement had to be plain. That was the whole of my thinking. The grey one goes with everything, so the new one must be grey and plain as well.

It took me an embarrassingly long time to see what was wrong with that. Plain grey goes with everything, and it also makes you disappear. Nobody has ever crossed a room to ask a woman about a plain grey cardigan. I had spent years choosing between a cardigan that worked and a cardigan that anybody would notice, and I had stopped believing you could have both.

The new one is called the Nancy

It is from Manchester Boutique, a small British boutique that has been quietly dressing women our age for a few years now.

It is still grey, because I know myself. A long soft knitted cardigan in a warm grey, down to the middle of my thigh, with a gentle knit that is cosy without being heavy. But across the shoulders there is a band of pattern in rust and cream, little leaves and snowflakes of the sort you see on proper old winter knits, and the same band again above the hem. It is grey that goes with everything, with just enough going on that you do not vanish inside it.

The details are quietly right. There is a hood, knitted in the same grey, which I thought I would never use and have already used twice. It buttons right up when the wind gets up, and the rest of the time I wear it open like a long coat. The cuffs turn back and stay put, the hem is a deep ribbed band that holds its shape, and there are proper pockets hidden in the side seams, deep enough for keys and the dog treats, which is where mine live now.

What happened at the charity shop

I do Tuesday mornings at the charity shop, sorting the rails and steaming other people’s cast-offs, which is not where you expect to be asked about your clothes.

Three women asked me about it before eleven o’clock. The first wanted to know which rail it had come off, and looked genuinely put out when I said it had come in on me. The second asked me to turn round so she could see the back of the hood. And Brenda on the till, who has seen every cardigan in Cheshire come through in a bin bag and rates none of them, said it was the first one anybody had ever tried to buy off my back.

The next morning I put it straight back on to take the dog out across the field, and felt completely myself in it. That is the bit I keep coming back to. It works for a till and it works for a labrador, and I did not think about it once in between.

Three things I have learned since

One. The sizing is honest. It runs from a UK 6/8 all the way to a 20/22, and it is the same relaxed shape the whole way up, not a different cardigan once you pass a certain number. I wish more places would bother with that.

Two. Pockets change a dog walk. Keys, treats, a poo bag and my phone, and both hands still free for the lead. It sounds like a small thing. It is not a small thing at ten past seven in a wet field.

Three. Grey was never the problem. It still goes over everything I own, jeans, dark trousers, the navy dress I wear to church. The pattern is what changed. It reads as a decision, and people treat you like you have made one.

About the price

I want to be straightforward about this, because it was the thing that made me hesitate.

The Nancy is £49.95 at the moment. It was £100.00.

My first thought was that there had to be a catch, because I have paid more than that for cardigans that are still sitting upstairs with their sleeves folded. There is no catch that I have found. They are a small boutique selling directly, so there is no department store taking a cut in the middle, and they run the sale to move the season’s stock while it is still cold enough to matter.

I did what I imagine you are doing now and went and read the reviews before I ordered. Just over three hundred of them, sitting at 4.2 stars. Not the suspiciously perfect five you see on some websites, which if I am honest made me trust it rather more. One woman had written, “Bought it to replace a cardigan I had worn to death and it is already going the same way. Soft, warm, and the pattern gets noticed.” That was the one that decided it for me.

It comes in a green and a red as well, and I have been back to look at the green with my sensible head on. My sensible head is losing.

What I would tell you if we were friends

If you and I were sat with a pot of tea and you asked me, this is what I would say.

Go and count your cardigans. If the number is silly, and the one on your shoulders right now is the oldest of the lot, then it is worth ten minutes of your evening to go and look at this one. Not because a cardigan will change your life. It will not. But there is something in reaching for the thing you actually love, and finding it is not falling apart, that I had forgotten about entirely.

Two practical things. The sale is on now and the first autumn stock is already going, so the middle sizes will disappear first. And if you are torn on colour, the grey is the one that goes with everything, which is how this whole story started.

Eleven cardigans, and it turns out the answer was a twelfth.

Maggie